"Don't want to go back to that place, but don't have no choice, no way."
Pink, Family Portrait.
So I'm going back to the humdrum countryside.
NOOOOOO.
Well, for a few days. I have to take this slow. Very slow.
To be truthful, I'm petrified. I feel ill remembering that place, anytime I dream about back there it is a nightmare. A place of judgement, where everyone knows your business, before you do, and ugly memories. I lost a large part of myself there. It was also a place where I had to cut off a lot of friends, who weren't real friends to me, and just wanted to use me, as if life was some big popularity show.
Despite my fear, I have to overcome this phobia. I can go where I want, regardless of people's feelings towards me. And I have things to retrieve from my room, I miss my family, and some of my lingering friends. And I need a break from this place.
Wish me luck.
And God watch over me.
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