Too Much

I'd be lying if I said I liked multi tasking.

This summer is already too much for me.  I have to resit half of the academic year due to getting ill in November, and I don't think I can pull it off this time.  Plus the added pressure of working full time hours at my "part time" job is really draining me.  I just work, and then come home...and work.  All of my friends have gone back home, and I don't go out anymore.  I've already been assigned my dissertation, and I can't leave it because I think I might fail the year, because if I pass the year, I would have been expected to have made a start on it already.  

If I am successful this summer, with saving money, and getting back to uni, I will still be unsuccessful, as I haven't relaxed, haven't explored or learnt anything new.  I will return to uni in September with the same (if not dwindling) level of intelligence I had the entire year.

Every day I go to work I'm aware that I should be studying and writing my novel.  I've had a new idea for a novel and I really want to get started on it.  There's a competition I want to enter in September.

But time's ticking.

It's all a bit too much.