Still can't get right.
When it comes to assignments for 'real uni' I just can't get my shit together.
Despite changing course, and doing my very best to do well...I can see I have still failed myself.
And like some never ending nightmare, nothing is ever finished, or complete, or a proper representation of what I feel I can do. What I told my lecturers, family and friends I would do. I've been at this uni for 4 years this summer, and all I thought to myself last night as I worked in the uni library till 6am, is why is this always my summer?
I try my best to be positive and all of that. But today I slept through a job interview, woke up to a power cut, and with only 4 hours to get my coursework submitted. But I had to ditch work to do so.
I've never felt lower and things have never seemed so dismal.
It doesn't matter where I live, what I do, what I change.
I still seem to be that same failure. And someone up there still seems to hate me.
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