More Sacrifice

Today I sold my DSLR camera, so that I could survive the next few weeks.

I've sold loads of things in the past.  I've sold two of my keyboards, clothes, make up, all kinds of electronic gadgets, phones, and even shoes.  

But today, selling my camera did hurt me a little.  I'd bought it as a birthday present for myself, two years ago.  I never used it; I never had time to get acquainted with it really.  But it saddens me because with my current financial situation (sinking in debt) I doubt I'll ever be able to afford another one anytime soon.  

Things are getting sparse. 

On a slightly more positive note, it looks like I've picked up a second job.  Got a few more weeks to go before it's all been determined and before I start.  But it's a bit of a relief.  I will just about be able to afford paying for the Creative Writing MA tuition fees.

It's going to be a lot of hard work though.  

Today was the first day I felt burnt out.  I woke up in the morning and honestly couldn't move.  My body had just had enough.  I didn't get up till 9:30am, which is very late for my current schedule.  It's funny though; when I was back in the countryside during the 'Bad Times' it was a miracle to peel myself out of bed before 12pm.  

I'm about to be 26.  I'm about to be 26.  I'm about to be 26.  

Last year I cried on my birthday.  I was homeless, I had just failed the design course that had stripped me of a good bit of confidence, inner strength and belief.  It took everything to make it last year.  Everything.  

This year, things are still difficult.  I'm still trying to get my financial situation under control, however I now have two jobs, one that is a good step towards getting an actual career into gear, another one to support my Masters studies.  I'm still trying to get my bearings, and would really like to make this new city my home.  My birthday would be a great opportunity to have a night out, invite some new friends out, and have a (very small) celebration.  

However my flat is still not all the way together, so I still have some work to do there.

Basically I have around two weeks to get ahead of coursework, get things lined up to start sorting my life out, and put together a very modest party.  All on a shoe string budget.  Wonderful.

The layout of my blog is really irritating me, I need to sort it out.  Maybe in the next two weeks?  Till next time.